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What am I supposed to do

Det är svårt att skilja på vem jag en gång varit och vem jag är idag. Allt jag skrivit i andra inlägg handlar inte bara om mig, tror många känner igen sig. 

Ibland vill man stänga av alla känslor och leva som en robot, slippa alla problem. Men hur kul är det? Ibland gör vi det omedvetet, man befinner sig i någon sorts gråzon. Jag kan idag med lätthet glömma ett problem och leva nuet. Det känns skönt att slippa det, som om man skyllt på någon annan och man bär skammen tillsammans.
Riktigt så är det inte. Man låtsas som om det regnar medan omgivningen suckar och ser på.
Men man tappar tålamodet, en ensam tår kanske faller och man blir fast. Är detta ett slags vapen? En robot som är programmerad att tro att sårbarhet är en svaghet, olycka finns inte. 
Men de stunder man väl är i sitsen, den ensama olyckliga. Lägger man sig intill väggen i sin ensamhet medan väggarna kommer närme.

en låt som talar



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